Deep Thinking

When you are sick and tripping on vicadin you think about a lot of things that you have never thought before. Last Saturday I questioned alot of things but after looking back on that night I had another pass at them during a conversation over the internet with somebody that people who read this do not need to know(please keep what i said on the dl.) Religion is the most overrated thing in the world. I believe in a god and believe that someone is somewhere making my life a tad harder for me but what churches teach is true bull. Today, Max told me I got kicked out of Phych. when nothing even close to that happened. I was yelled at for sleeping. Being sick he later understood. But the fact remains that in the matter of one day the story had changed that much. So how could religion not change in the matter of thousands of years? I believe religion to be a way of putting meaning to our lives and just not accepting the fact that we are just on this world to live out something pointless and try to leave some kind of mark, most do not. Our lives our pretty pointless also. We do meaningless things every day. I play basketball and it has come to my mind that in no way 10 years from now will this ever help me. The things I do for fun have no purpose either. I play football or a shooting game on video game console. Now if you can think of one way how that will make me a better person or help me in the future I congradulate you and hopefully you let me in on it. I have very few friends that I think I will talk to after high school and out of all of them I only know of one of them that would save my life if it was ever threatened. I thank him for this and this person usually does not read my blog but I will thank him anyways. Millions of things rushing through my mind and I don't know if I'm crazy, the Z-Pack, or a combo. Thanks for reading this pointless post but I wanted a record of the day I questioned alot of things.

Gretchen: You're weird.
Donnie: Sorry.
Gretchen: No, that was a compliment.
Donnie Darko